Most days I feel blessed to be this way, and then there are days, and times, and discussions with people closest to me, that make me realize, that like any characteristic we have in life, there is always a flip side….just like the flip side of creativity can often be depression (fact)….. . I CAN however say this, that most of the best decisions of my life, were made thanks to my ability to function independently, and my determination, when it came to things that really mattered to me.
At the beginning of 2008, after much soul searching, I really strongly believed that in the best interest of our family, we needed to consider moving to the Midlands. I am blessed to have a job that allows me to work from just about anywhere, the children would be able to attend a school that for Nick and I, encompassed everything we could wish our children to be exposed to in the form of Education and life, and Nick would be able to hopefully slow down before keeling over from a stress induced heart attack!! Naturally my DH was surprised by my suggestion, but we both agreed that life is to be lived, and as I’ve said before, you can be so busy living it, that before you know it, it’s passed you by.... We’ve always LOVED the Midlands and found so much peace there, and over the 9 years of frequenting it regularly, have made some connections there too. So we agreed that this move would be us living our dream, or one step closer to it anyway, and that if we were going to live in South Africa, then we were going to take full advantage of all the wonderful things it has to offer, and live our best life.
Whilst I was determined to do whatever possible to take our lives successfully into that direction, and make this life changing experience a reality, my intuition kept saying that for once in my life, I needed to allow this journey to be guided for the most part, by the course of events, and God or the Universe (we pretty much have all our bases covered in our family – LOL!!) instead of manipulating the course of justice and forcing things into place, which can very often, when I'm passionate enough about something, be my usual modus operandi (possibly one of the downsides to that independent/determined streak) – heck I’m all for making the mountain come to Mohammed if all else fails – LOL!!
So my thoughts for today are this: In life, you just never know what sits in wait around the corner….you may think you do, and then BAM, something hits you out of the blue, and it reminds you that there is something so much bigger than us out there, influencing your bigger picture. And every road you take, may lead to a number of places actually, depending on how you approach the journey, which can often define whether or not the destination is in one’s best interest or not. I have always been a firm believer that to a large extent we create our own destiny, and make our own luck, so leaving our dream in the hands of God and fate/Universe was a huge leap of faith for me, but I have once again been reminded that you need to do whatever you can, and then there's a point when you need to sit back and wait for the situation to reveal itself or play itself out. And there are times like now, that I feel life has presented me with options and results I myself would not have imagined possible…so I guess it is true, life isn’t always about GETTING, sometimes it is about LETTING…and I think it is also true that very often, not getting what you want can be a blessing, or maybe there's an even bigger picture still waiting to be revealed……