tO "BEE" fREe

This morning I had a bee visitor.....i know it was an intentional visit because yesterday I saw another bee, and since my very wise aunt and mother believe that certain animals/insects show up for a reason, I believe.... it just makes sense to me - i guess maybe that thought also comes from my belief that God was intentional about everything he made...colours, nature, animals, US ..and that everything is relevant and linked and influences everything else....on purpose...that's what I mean.

SO my Bee visitor waited to get my attention and then tried to leave...through the plate glass window....it was just SOOOO not gonna happen, LOL!!- the whole 'I can fly through this big glass window thang'....obviously.  So I jumped up to let it free through a window, thinking, all the while, how I could so relate to how it was feeling....like I can see through the window - i can see where I'm going and what's ahead and where I want to be, but I have to dig so so deep sometimes lately to stay focused and apply myself, and that sometimes, i guess most of us can feel a little like there's an invisible wall between us and something that's possible, or necessary, or on our 'wish list'...you fill in the blank.  It takes me back to last night, when a little voice inside me said "Hey, cut yourself some slack....it's been a tough year....".  Losing my Gran took what felt like YEARS off my life....everyday is a day without HER...it's like a stone that weighs me down....just a little...it's a sadness that's ever present, it's something I know I haven't really come to terms with.....not that I'm focusing on the negtive, but I felt relief just taking the time to think about and acknowledge the changes in my life that have influenced me this year....

This morning whilst chatting to a speaker, a man who is wise in so many ways, and for whom I have huge respect, he said something that unwittingly brought me such peace ....just like me setting my bee free.....his words set me free....AmaZing.....sometimes we hold onto people and things and situations so so tightly, that it hurts and hinders us more than it should.....it's so good to just sometimes let go a little.....I have that problem with my children.....I hold onto EVERYTHING about them, too tightly....

So today i thought i'd let go of the fact that it's Monday, and that we're back to school, and that I'm busy, and I would try to concentrate on just bee'ing "free"..... so whatever's holding you back today...just try and let it go...just like you would let a pencil fall out of your hand....or watch a butterfly or bee fly away....