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Married to Nick for 13 years, with 2 children; Sabrina - 12 and Dominic - 11. I am a girlfriend through and through in that I love girly things and anything that celebrates the essence of being a woman. I love vintage, shabby chic, the country and try my best to do my bit for the environment. SO yes...we have 3 bins in our house and try our best to recycle! I believe that with everything in life, the closer we stick to nature, the better off we'll be. I would love to have a balance in life, but have learnt that balance is not always possible, so strive for significance instead, in the hopes that that will be just as meaningful, and the rest will hopefully follow.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Just thinking....

Today was back to school for the kids:-/. I drove back home after drop off, thinking how important it is that I really keep my head this term. Last term left me feeling wrung out and spun out, kind of like your soft delicates, wools and silks being left on the denim cycle by mistake, with some serious spin at the end.

I LURVE being busy, - no i NEED to be busy, but SERIOUSLY??...I'm so over MANIC. When I get like this, I imagine myself (I always think in pictures..tee hee) of someone standing on the centre line of a freeway, a very busy one (in another country of course because we all know how that would end in this country, but moving on - LOL), just slowly watching the cars whizz by....feeling them rush by me, but standing my ground and opting out of the madness. So that is my goal for the next 8 weeks.....to revell in the beautiful sunshine we are having, smile more (right down to my liver - did you know that's a form of meditation??? - DANG! - how easy is THAT??), walk slower, talk slower (EISH - not talk less), and do everything with more intent and grace. It's really, really what I need right now.
I love these 2 pics of my children - (thanks Vee) - they really resonate with me at the moment and the calmness I want to pursue....."one day when I'm big I want to be as chilled as this:-).."

And lastly I just have to say thank you, thank you, thank you to all those women in my life who know my heart. You all know who you are - you really are the caramel ice-cream when I'm feeling hot and bothered, or my lush green meadow with black and white cows in it, when I need clarity, and my creamuccino on a chilly day, that warms me to my toes, ...ooohhh and the perfect butterfly or blossom to remind me of all the blessings I have and how fortunate I am to have you in my life. Yesterday at church (i know i know...I meditate AND go to church - the joys of being a family of VERY MIXED "denomination"), someone who doesn't spend much time with me, but more importantly knows my heart, just appeared in front of me like an angel, and wrapped me in some love and comfort just when I needed it:-). I am not coping well with my Gran's illness, and her words and comfort have made the world of difference to me. The flipside though, is that sometimes we can't always get to support the people we love and care about as much as we want to, for whatever reason, in my case, because you're too busy digging yourself out of your own hole. After speaking to my friend Venessa, about all the souls that need caring and how to get to them all, she found this AWESOME quote and sent it onto me...i LOVE IT...thank you Vee! Mwah!
This is for all those friends who have propped me up over the last few weeks, and for those I haven't been connecting with as much as I know I should...

4 comments:

  1. Lovely post Bee, really..... you know how I feel about all you said already, sometimes we actually just need to be there for ourselves. True friends will understand.

    A loving silence often has far more power to heal and to connect than the most well-intentioned words. ~ RACHEL NAOMI REMEN

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  2. Oh Mother Louis, I hear you, Bee ... THAT TRAIN HAD BETTER SLOW DOWN AND LET ME AT LEAST GET ONTO LIFE ... or do I want off right now??? mmm ... MEDITATION ... sounds good ...

    Glad you have the ability to stop and assess ... it really helps us get through and, of course, good friends make a difference too ...

    Love, T

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  3. sniff sniff - bee you back - welcome home prodigal daughter ...we all having a feast and a celebrational cupcake in your honour - been a tough year so far for you - well done for handling it so well-what doesnt strengthen us fattens us - guess how you been affected by it all - mmmmmmm BITCH - ha ha - adore you and pray for you often....i laugh inside at all our hillarious moments we shared

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  4. always and forever Bee xxxxxx

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