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Married to Nick for 13 years, with 2 children; Sabrina - 12 and Dominic - 11. I am a girlfriend through and through in that I love girly things and anything that celebrates the essence of being a woman. I love vintage, shabby chic, the country and try my best to do my bit for the environment. SO yes...we have 3 bins in our house and try our best to recycle! I believe that with everything in life, the closer we stick to nature, the better off we'll be. I would love to have a balance in life, but have learnt that balance is not always possible, so strive for significance instead, in the hopes that that will be just as meaningful, and the rest will hopefully follow.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Wonderstruck

This morning I have a spring in my step, and a feeling of peace and joy around me, that initially i couldn't describe. I even asked myself why today is different. Generally speaking I am ALWAYS HAPPY - I love life, and I feel so blessed, that well....how could I not be happy most of the time. The last few weeks though, have maybe taken the shine of things a little?? Yeah, maybe that's what it is......watching someone you love slip away messes with your head and your heart in a way that is indescribable, but then again, I am grateful that I have had time to say everything that needs to be said, and to love with all my heart and with everything I have. The good news is that today, I feel more restored than I have in the last 2 months,....infact I feel wonderstruck.

Yesterday on the way to church I commented to my hubby how a wave of sadness had just washed over me, just thinking of my darling Gran, and how I wish I could be closer. During the service though, i took stock of my thoughts and feelings, and when I looked around I realised that I was surrounded by so many wonderful, caring, loving, happy, joyful people, who wrap you in their love, laughter and friendship, and that's what I need to focus on right now.

Our school family fun day on Saturday was the best it's ever been, and once again, we spent a wonderful day surrounded by friends, families, laughter, joy and squeals of delight, and I had moments where I sat pondering on how VERY BLESSED our family is to be a part of this community, it's bliss and it's wholesomeness, and that's what I am focusing on right now.

The weather has been glorious - summer without the rain. Everything in the garden is doused with sunshine at the moment, and this is where I sit and earn a living...wow. This morning we harvested fresh eggs, green beans and our first successful pickings of tomatoes - I shrieked with excitement - now that there is enough for me to focus on right now!!!

At last, I feel as if I am almost back at the place where I used to be. I have raised my "wonder quotient", and am revelling in the joy of our lives at the moment. Baking cupcakes and making homemade lemonade seems like a possibility again. I'm back in the moment, and wonderstruck really is what I am.

2 comments:

  1. aaaaah Bereldene Stemp - this made me smile WITHIN - hearing the butter yellow ooze out of your words knowing there is sunshine within - imagining you shrieking from pure delight at those poor tomatoes and soaking in all the family fun day had to offer - well done for seeing life as a recipe - you need ingredients - family friends health sunshine and green trees then you bind it together with effort and determination soil and flowers and lots of prayer and voila - a happy life - thats my recipe and i ENJOY it often....kisses and massive butterscotch hugs, your friend thru life, linda

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  2. welcome back Bee, I can feel your joy in every word and it warms my heart to know that you are back in the zone gf.
    love always xxx

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