Filling up my tank

One of my speakers has a rather profound message on his mobile. After leaving all the mundane "you know what to do" bits and pieces, he always says...."and remember...if you're not growing - you're DYING".....hmmmm....(okaaayyyy - thank heavens I'm not suicidal!!)...but bottom line is - it's TRUE! I've stopped asking myself why it is that I am ALWAYS asking questions about "LIFE", the "self" and how to "upgrade to a better version of oneself"..blah-blah-blah- seriously - do you blame me???? With that kind of input on a daily basis, 6 years down the line, if it hasn't rubbed off you must be emotionally stunted, or DEAD. Thankfully just when I thought all the little voices in my head had gone quiet (ie. braindead), I GREW a new shoot!

In the last few weeks, life has sent so many interesting people my way. It's certainly been the month of spring for my soul, in that I've been introduced to so many new ideas, thoughts and concepts, that I can't help but compare it to being in the "I love cupcake" store of life! And it's been most welcome after 4 months of being so focused on what I thought was the "important" stuff in life, like time management, LISTS - UGHHHH, organisation, "focus on the family", ACHIEVEING, the "I CAN RUN RUSSIA" syndrome, that my friend Linnie often talks about - sure you can BUT DO YOU WANT TO??? - . And all this time the universe is thinking....ok ...has this chick lost the plot OR WHAT!!!??? To put it plainly - I had REGRESSED somewhat - but never without the lessons.

Thank heavens for girlfriends, and loved ones who are "upstream" of us - the people who recognise the warning signs that are often so subtle, we can't see them for dust. Friends who can see that in your pursuit of balance, you have lost yourself in the process. I think it's called "TRYING TOO HARD". April was my month for filling the tank, and once again dabbling in things that feed the soul, and in turn May has been the month where I seem to be reaping the rewards of remembering to follow the joy and the bliss, and to do more of the letting, than the getting...

I'm more of a green pastures person than a mountain person, but our camping trip to Hlalanathi Caravan Park put the beauty of the Drakensberg mountains into a new light for me - I'm a slow learner I guess, but never before has it's beauty been so apparent to me as it was on this trip, where we were out in the elements, and in the midst of it all. Years ago I never would have believed myself to be a camper, but to be living in the outdoors, (sans that flat iron and hair dryer - EISH!), and to see our children RELISH being outdoors from early in the morning till late at night, just makes you want to keep coming back for more.... The sunsets were breathtaking....A river runs through it.....the river was every childs DREAM, and the VIEW from our campsite and the park itself was every adults..
Seriously spoilt with our own ablutions and kitchen with lapa area...luxury camping, but camping nontheless!

The girls doing...wait for it.......ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!!!!!